16th day- I declare WOMB wellness NOT war ft. Micahlette

The BETTER not the Bitter 
Sweet 16th... 

In a world full of opportunities and liberty, it was a hard pill to swallow knowing I was pregnant at 16 and finding out at my sweet 16th party. I didn't know what I was going to do or who to talk to but I remembered Ms. Owens and she remembered me. I didn't think she would even answer or if she would accept me wanting to get rid of my baby. After I called her and left a message she called me right back and I knew she really meant it when she said she loved me. I had known her since I was in 6th grade and she was teaching PreK she started volunteering at my school. She told me her story and I couldn't believe she told me. I cried but I didn't let her know. She was so strong and independent to me I just didn't think she would know where I was coming from or even understand how I felt.  She told me how much she missed her unborn baby and how she thought there was no way she could take care of a baby, go to college, and work because she had already found out that the baby's daddy had someone else pregnant. She was captain of the dance team and had 5 months to go before she could even get out of waking up early and going to school. I remember it like it was yesterday she said if I had known what I know now no one could have kept her from having her baby. She stated that all the walking and hard work she does now is to show herself that she is strong enough and no one else since she saw herself as so weak or unable at that point in her life. I still have the letter she wrote me while I was in the hospital because she didn't come she said it was my Mother that I needed since I had a Mother because some girls really don't have anyone to go to or talk to. She made me appreciate my Mother for all the things I didn't see she did for me like Ms. Owens said just the fact that I could go into my room and turn on lights or go to the kitchen and eat. It was big things that I didn't reealize but now I know she had to love me as well to have provided those things for me, my brother and sister. 

I remember going to planned parenthood and not feeling like they wanted me to have my baby not that they ever said it but the visits were just so impersonal. 

I thank my Mother for being understanding though I didn't tell her for a long time because I thought she would be upset that I told Ms. Owens and not her but all she said was I am happy you felt like you could trust her and didn't have to face it by yourself. Ms. Owens was upset when she found out I hadn't told my Mother and I remember her saying that your Mother brought you in this world no matter how I felt about that and she deserves to know when her baby is having a baby. So I asked my Uncle if he would go with me to tell her. My Uncle and Ms. Owens were high school classmates but I didn't know that until I told her that I was going to ask my Uncle to go with me to tell my Mother. My Uncle and Ms. Owens really helped me get through it with laughter and love. I have a 3 year old son now who is the love of my life and my Mother and I have a open and honest relationship. Ms. Owens still keeps in touch with me and gives my baby something for his birthday every year. She is his GodMother and Auntie let her tell it 😊

Micahlette

I love you Ms. Owens